I've got the answer...

I’m not in good mood today. I didn't know why. Maybe it’s a kind of ‘kaffarah’ from Allah due to my mountain of sins.

After Jumaat prayer, I sat alone at one corner inside the masjid and wondering around. I’ve been thinking of my future, my aim of this semester etc. I tried my best to renew my intention of being a student i.e. studies.

However, it’s not an easy thing for me to totally purify my intention. Sometimes I keep on bearing in my mind to study hard, just to ensure I'll get a proper job with good payment. It really pushed me up. My mind made a conclusion, study hard = bright future = good salary.

Honestly speaking, it really makes me sick! I’m in dilemma.

Allah is always with us. He will help us when we are in need......

Suddenly, my ears caught one ayat from the Holy Quran recited by one Arab guy in the Masjid. The ayat sounds familiar to me but I couldn’t manage to recall which chapter and what ayat it is. Straight away I messaged my best sahabat in Egypt, ‘Imran, seeking his help. Few minutes later, he replied.

“Surah At-Tolaq. Ayat no 2&3”

Allah says,

“…..and for those who fear Allah, He (ever) prepares a way out,. And He Provides for Him from (sources) He never could imagine. and if any one puts His trust In Allah, sufficient is ((Allah)) for Him. for Allah will surely accomplish His purpose: Verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion.”

In Malay,

“Barang siapa yang bertaqwa kepada Allah nescaya Dia akan membukakan jalan keluar baginya. Dan dia memberinya rezeki dari arah yang tidak disangka-sangkanya. Dan barang siapa yang bertawakkal kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan mencukupkan (keperluan)nya. Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusan-Nya. Sungguh Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi setiap sesuatu.”

It really touched my heart. I really felt the presence of Allah that time. Alhamdulillah.

That night, I met my friend who just enrolled UniKL MIAT. He keeps on saying that those who graduated from MIAT will get the starting salary RM3000 up to RM4000 per month. Even he underestimated IIUM graduates. He was telling me his dreamed car and intended to by it after graduate with his “HIGH SALARY”.

For me, I didn’t bother with his statements because I’ve already got the answer....

Thank you Allah for reminding me..