Tuesday, September 13, 2011

I dunno why..

I don't know why,but honestly I've changed..
I'm not the same person 6 years ago.Or even 2 years back.

I used to be 'serious' all the time and seldom making jokes with my friends,but not anymore.
I wonder if this is who I am right now,I won't be the most charming school prefect when I was in the high school. (sounds like I'm useless now..Indeed maybe?)

I have no idea and strength to talk something related to 'tarbiyyah' or anything islamic although I used to do so.Hmmm...

I'm happy with with what I do right now??I have no answer for that.
I'm still looking for my identity and it really sucks tough.

O Allah please guide me.Show me the way out..

6 comments:

AA said...

people change everyday..maybe not today, but they will change tomorrow or the day after...it is what u do with the changes that u r going through will turn urself someone or something at the end of the day..be it good or bad, u know urself the best..what more, u learned before, u have been tarbiyah before..yup again, it is a matter of searching for ur true self that makes u wander around looking for the right thing to make things happen according to its nature and fitrah..

NJ said...

Thanks for the words...

brohamzh said...

Assalamualaikum, Firstly afwan I attend to write in Malay. More suitable with me.^^ Mohon izin ya.

Fitrah kejadian alam, manusia dan sekeliling kita sememangnya melalui fasa-fasa perubahan. Kerana itulah, perubahan sebahagian daripada kehidupan.

Perubahan akan membuatkan kita ghairah, semangat dan terus menerus ini hidup dengan jiwa yang besar. Perubahan yang bermakna, bererti dan berharga adalah perubahan yang membawa kita menjadi hamba.

Ya, Hamba Ilahi, Hamba Rabbani.
Hamba yang sebenar-benarnya.

Semakin hari, hati semakin merasai kemanisan iman dan kepasrahan kepada-Nya,
Semakin hari, semakin cekal dan tabah menempuhi segala rintangan kehidupan.
Semakin hari, semakin berisi hati dengan input-input penyejuk nurani.

Itulah perubahan yang dihajati. Begitu juga dengan tarbiyah - seharusnya berkembang dan berkembang. Perkongsian, boleh rujuk ke blog ana - BroHamzah.

InsyaAllah, sekian.
Afwan, terpanjang mencoret kat sini.

NJ said...

@brohamzah:

wa'alaikumussalam warahmatullah.
It's ok.Not a big deal at all responding in Malay if the points are easier to b delivered n better to b understood instead of English.

Benar apa yg nta katakan.Cumanya hati ini terlalu celaru dan keliru nak mencari dan merasai erti perubahan yg hakiki i.e. perubahan yg 'mmbawa kita menjadi hamba'.

Bukan tidak tahu,bahkan berilmu,
Bukan tidak berhajat kpd perubahan kebaikan,tapi 'masih tidak ketemu'.

Mmg tahu perlu mencari segala faktor2 kekuatan namun nak cari tu memerlukan kekuatan juga yg mana kekuatan tu 'hilang entah ke mana'.

Insha Allah perubahan kpd kebaikan itu mungkin 'slow' skit untuk diri ana,tp biarlah ia terus berubah walau sedikit demi sedikit.

Insha Allah akan merujuk ke blog nta. ^^

Afwan,terpanjang juga ana merespond.

Anonymous said...

may Allah will always bless u, dont forget to pray..Allah Maha Mendengar kebimbangan hambaNYA.
-syafiq-

NJ said...

@anonymous/syafiq:
insha Allah..Thanks