clinging the dream..

I've been dreaming to have it,
But it's difficult to find it,
Although I've found it,
I can't afford to have it,
People say:"First love is priceless",
Now I agreed without a say.

I've tried my best to find the way,
Either for free or have to pay,

It seems impossible to have for free,
In fact she's the best in her nature,
Although she's tough,she comforts me.

I've decided to choose her,
To be my friend,partner and love,
Hopefully others won't be jealous,
For not picking them as I did for her.

I'm now changing my life,
From single to couple or double,
But people won't be able to find the difference,
Cause I'll be acting as if the old.

~I'll strive my best to have you.Insya Allah you'll be mine someday.
*Dedicated to my dream's bag,Deuter Race X Air.I really fall in love with you...






*Just googled out the price.Having her like a dream come true..~RM240.00

Let us discuss it calmly and rationally.

Alhamdulillah praise to Allah The Almighty for His Ar Rahman and Ar Rahim,we still being given with full of 'nikmah'although we sometimes forget to obey and submit to HIM.

Last week my friednd invited me to attend one inter-faith dialogue between Muslim,Christian,Hindu and Sikh.They were discussed under the title,"Do all paths lead to Paradise?"

Alhamdulillah it was a very intellectual discussion.Each and every panels tried their best to give their points based on their faith and teaching.As for me,I gained lot of new things that night.

I enjoyed the discussion very much until when it came to the Q and A session.Honestly said,inside the hall,Malays were the minority.It is usual and normal I guessed.Most of the audients were the International students where I think they have no experience in living with multi-religion community i.e Malaysia.Thus,they behaved and acted too extreme.(I guessed so..)

Some of the questions thrown by the International students especially the Arabs were not supposely relevent to be answered.I'm not saying I'm compromising my religion with other believes and faiths,but logically those questions shouldn't being asked at the first place.

For example:One of the student suddenly recited few verses from the Al Quran fully 'tarannum'regarding Islam is the true Religion.He then asked the non Muslim panels to respond to the verses.

Personally,I don't think it was a good question.How were they going to respond to the quran,in fact they didn't believe in quran at once.Even when the question being asked,some irrelevent emotions were attached with them,thus it created some kind of 'hot situation'.

Worst,when they were answering the questions to their best,some of the audients started to chatting and it made the hall a bit noisy.The climax of the stupidity happened when audients made the speakers looked silly and disrespected.While the speakers still answering the questions,they started to clap their stinky hands as a symbols of 'stop'to the speakers.-speakers being humiliated.WOE!!

As a Muslim,I was very dissapointed and embarrassed.This dialogue supposely been discussed professionally,calmly and rationally.We were there to learn about their faiths not for attacking and humiliating them.Islam didn't teaches us to act in such a way.

Anyway,the program started and ended smoothly.Congratulation to the organizer and I hope such program can be done for few sessions because to understand other faiths need a lot of knowledge.

May Allah shower the non Muslim speakers with Hidayah someday.

Note 1:As the program was conducted in English,I was amazed for few times during the Q&A session.I thought 'Harry Porter' was asking a question but then I realized that it was only a Malay guy with humble face, asking a question.His English, (slang and fluency)are marvellous!He got the potential to be a good muslim preacher one day as he memorized few chapters from the bible.I liked his style.

Note 2:Once again,I was amazed for brother Sobri,an American student when he asked a question.He is an African living in America (if I'm not mistaken he livs in Georgia,USA).His English,subhanallah! As if Akon (an American black singer),was asking a question.His English style really awesome!

What say you?

Recently,I was thinking about ending my life as a blogger.

Decision still undicided yet.-Pending.

Or maybe I should change a little bit the genre of my blog?

Maybe you can help me in giving opinions or suggestions.I really appreciate it.

So,What say you?

Can't wait any longer..

I can't wait any longer to enter next semester.Practical training make me sick and I loved to join again the classes.Listening to the lectures,doing the assignments etc.

Insya Allah I'll be in the final year for the next semester.Alhamdulillah I just added the subjects which are required for the 4th year students.

Next semester,I'll be taking:-

1)RESEARCH METHODS FOR THE BUILT ENVIRONMENT
2)PRINCIPLES OF MEASUREMENT OF CIVIL ENGINEERING WORKS
3)PROPERTY INVESTMENT AND VALUATION
4)PRINCIPLES OF ISLAM IN CONSTRUCTION PROCUREMENT
5)QUANTITY SURVEYING PRACTICE AND ADMINISTRATION
6)ADVANCED POST-CONTRACT ADMINISTRATION FOR QUANTITY SURVEYORS
7)CIVIL ENGINEERING CONSTRUCTION 2

Wish me all the best!

*I couldn't register for skill 2.Aaa!!

The smiles recalled the memories..

For months and even years I haven't met some of my sahabat whom I would consider my back bones during my life as a MATRIAN. (MATRI community especially my batch)

Alhamdulillah,I've met them and it was a sweet memories for me as it is quite difficult to gather all of us unless we are having a big mass program.I couldn't forget the moment we were shaking hands and hugging releasing the longing for the old days.

Actually it was unplan event for us to be met.They were unexpected to come due to the distance factor.However,we planned and Allah had His plan too.Allah plans is the best.

Many olden days stories were revealed one by one,and we started to laugh when it comes to the "stupidity/silly event" during our life in the beloved secondary school.
~sleeping while solat(sepecially subuh/qiyamullail),doing acrobatic show before performing Friday prayer due to the numbed legs.-slept during khutbah/sermon.
Even the story of fallen down from the double decker bed while sleeping.(it only happened during form 1-2 as some of the students had no experience sleeping on double decker bed)

Time envied and it passed too fast.It is just like a blinking of the eyes and suddenly we are standing right here at this moment and worse,some of us are getting married thus we have to accept that time comes and goes and we are getting older and can no longer having this kind of "bachelor party".

Anyway,I hope the sweetness of our memories while we were together,working on the path of Da'wah and Tarbiyyah will remains in our heart and it will be one of the sources to gain strength when we are facing difficulties and tribulations.-We are not alone.We are in the Jama'ah and Allah is with us.

Again....those smiles from my sahabat will make me remember the olden days.

May Allah bless our ukhuwwah and make us istiqamah to work and strive on this path.The path of our beloved Prophed,Muhammad S.A.W.

Note1 :I just met 'Akif Adam(he said he missed me a lot while chatting with him few days before),Hafiz Z.Abidin,Ikhwan Rosli,Umar Afifi,Zakiran.(hopefully I didn't miss to mention other names-my batch)~info:I'm not asobiyah.

Note2: I met some of my juniors.Ammar Amran,Naqiuddin(I haven't met them for quite sometimes).And I did met some of my respected seniors i.e hudzaifah,mughirah etc.

Note3: I met my brother,Ikhwan Zulkifli.While shaking hands+hugging with him I thought I was shaking hands with Allahyarham 'Ammar.He reminds me a lot to my beloved,unreplaceable sahabat.

Note4: Daurah Usul 20 really benefits me and make me more firm and confident to dive into the human ocean which full with 1001 problems.

Wisdom..

Confucius says:

"Man who run infront of car, get tired,
Man who run behind car, get exhausted."

"When man 60 marry girl 25,like buying book for someone else to read."

"He who thinks only of number one,must remember that this number is next to nothing."


Note:Is it ok to quote something from non Muslim words?

Questions....

Lot of questions keep on coming,crossing my mind..
Question about life,planning,DnT etc.

Too many questions made me sick,thus it remains unsolved.I'm still weak to face all of these things.

Can I be a Dai'e?A Dai'e should stand strong undoubtedly.Ready to face obstacles and tribulations.How about me?

Most of dai'e nowadays felt down and stuck in the middle of the path.They had lost their aim and seriousness in working for ISLAM.Am I in the circle of these people?

ISLAM need a strong,serious,"kejelasan fikrah"(how should I translate it?)men.My respected,beloved for the sake of Allah sahabat,Wan Mohd Akmal, once sent an sms to me,:

"Sahabatku,dai'e tidak bermula dengan mengajak orang lain kepada Islamtapi dia bermula dari dalam diri sendiri..Hatinya sendiri sebelum hati manusia yang ingin diajaknya.Benarlah kata seorang tokoh Ikhwan,Islam tidak akan tertegak dalam masyarakat dan seterusnya negara sebelum tertegaknya Islam dari dalam diri sendiri.Sebab permulaan segala sesuatu adalah tazkiyah an nafs."

.........

This entry is a bit misery.Sorry..
I'm not in good condition.Got MC today,but still wanted to write something.

Sharing moment

Yesterday night menyentuh hati saya.
Berchatting dengan sahabat saya yang saya sayangi dan kasihi kerana Allah,Adam Mohd Kadir.

Sebenarnya saya agak kepingin dan rindu suasana di MATRI.suasana bersama sahabat2 saya dahulu.Sukar sekali ingin bertemu dengan sahabat2 saya sejak masing2 bertebaran di Bumi Allah meneruskan perjuangan menuntut ilmu.

Kesannya,bila bertemu semula, saya jadi segan dengan mereka.Rasa macam ada barrier between us.Tak melawak ala-ala time dekat MATRI dulu.Rasa malu dll.

Maka malam tadi,sesi kongsi rasa dari hati ke hati bersama sahabat saya,Adam Kadir.Satu per satu kisah2 di MATRI bermula dari tingkatan 1 hingga tingkatan 5 kami korek bersama.Hampir menitis air mata.(lelaki juga bisa menangis.Menangis itu tandanya hati hidup,Insya Allah)

Cumanya perlu ajak lagi sahabat2 yang lain yang agak close dan memahami i.e.akmal zaim,hafiz z.abidin,umar afifi,ali hanis dan lain2.(shbt2 mesir jgn kecil hati.Antum jauh la).Cerita2 silam membakar semangat utk terus bekerja atas jalan DnT ini.

Kenangan2 manis dan pahit bersama ketika d bumi wakafan.Amal Jamai'e bersama,bertugas dewan makan,jadi tekong yasin/al kahfi dll.Aahh..rindunya.

Maka dengan itu,ada perancangan susulan wahai sahabat2 sekalian.Kita perlu duduk bersama dan berkongsi rasa.Luahan hati ke hati.Semuanya untuk eratkan kembali ukhuwwah antara kita.Rindu betul untuk bertemu dan bersama antum.

Kepada Adam,nanti kita plan sama2 ek.Buat backpacking from wilayah tengah ke Utara ke.Camping ke..

Uhibbukum fillah...

Stand firm with our principles

Each and every single of us surely have our own principles.Honestly,I got many principles in my life which sometimes make people might say I'm too choosy or awkward seems I'm the only one having these kind of principles in the circle of my friends.

Just to share one of my principle which I think relevant and might contribute some benefits to all my respected readers.

Going to cinema is jerk and kind of Haram for me.
Sounds wired?But that's the truth.My friends keep on complaining whenever they invited me to watch any movies,surely I'll refuse.Thus,it makes me live 22 years without never and ever step in any cinemas.




I have reasons for that.The environment inside the cinema itself make me a sinner if I entered.Dark + mixing seat(male n female)+ etc.The possibility for spectators to commit bad things are high.My principle was supported by 1 of my friend who was a cinema worker.He told me that he saw many jerk things happened inside the cinema.Thus,the proof of the pudding is in the eating.
Some people instead of watching movie,the did other things.Wek!

I still remember my beloved and respected murobbi,Sir Abdoh was mentioned about the characteristics of a Dai'e.One of them,avoiding things that will make our reputation as a Dai'e scratch.In other words,never create things which will make fitnah to us and Islam.Even passing by near the cinema should be prevented.Who knows,while passing by,suddenly people saw it and started to create story.
"Bla bla bla this guy can only speaks Islam but still going to cinema"..
Although we were just passing by.People mouth,nobody can stop from slandering.

Can we imagine,a person who talks about Islam suddenly went to the cinema.Surely people will "pandang serong"/slight view(am I right translating this?).

Thus,it makes the spreading of Islam retarded.

Hopefully we gain something.Thanks for patiently reading this entry.

Note 1:My sahabat,Siddiqi once told me:As long as our principles benefits to Islam,then hold it firmly.

Note 2:Difficult to change the ustaz-cinema-attach person as watching in the cinema is already a norm for youngsters.Need slowly da'wah fardhiah.

Note 3:Actually not only cinema we should prevented but all other things which are lagho,unbenefits,wasting time,no benefits to Islam etc.
It is for me too.Need time for Mu'alajah al 'Uyub..

What a shamed!

Salam.

Just a non academical entry or even a tazkirah or what not.I'm sharing my experience which it happened two days ago.

Around 5.20pm,I was sending an sms to my friends whom are doing their practical training as me.I wrote (more or less like this);

"counting the minutes guys.Once the clock strikes 5.30pm,let's run and left the office.FREEDOM!!!"

Few minutes after 5.30pm my friend(practical training mate)and I went down to the motorbike.The sky were really dark as if smoke coming out from a chimney.It's going to rain heavily,I guessed.

Suddenly my phone vibrated.One of my friend whom I sent the sms just now, replied.
"Woi aku dah kat UIA la.Baik ko balik cepat.Nak hujan ni!"

Me:Seems like it's going to rain
Friend:So?what do u suggest?
Me:Lets go home!If it raining cats and dogs,then we will stop and find a place for shade.

On the way back,suddenly the rain was too heavy.Alhamdulillah we found a spot for shelter i.e under the LRT fly over.After waiting for a while,there was no sign for the rain to stop.

Thus,we decided to proceed our journey back to UIA.But before that,we put on the raincoat and we put off our shoes.We were riding(I was a ride pillion)the motorbike with barefoot.

As we approached the UIA main gate,the sky looked blue and clear.No sign of raining or even a drop of rain on the road.So,we were entering the UIA with fully covered with the raincoat and worse,with barefoot.

As expected,every eyes were starring at us with awkward.~Clear sky but seeing guys wearing raincoat and barefoot.

Alhamdulillah we arrived at UIA safely although "agak malu besar".

Note:Be cool n ignore others.They didn't know the real situation.

Perhimpunana Perdana Palestin

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Adegan itu berulang lagi...

First and foremost,I'm seeking apologize to all readers.Please allow me to write in Malay a.k.a the language of my mother tongue.Should there be any request from readers to translate it into English,then I'll be doing so,Insha Allah.

Malam tadi,seusai solat Isya' berjemaah di Musolla,kakiku pantas menuju ke kiosk untuk membeli air kotak dek terlalu haus dan kepingin sekali.(bunyi Indon sikit?)Kiosk dipenuhi dengan Foreign students disebabkan UIA masih mid term break.Hanya saya yang Melayu.Cashiernya dari Thailand.

Selepas meng'grab'dua air kotak,saya pun menuju ke cashier untuk membayar.Saya bukan tamak dengan membeli dua air kotak,tetapi hajatnya nak ziarah bilik kawan dan memberinya satu.

Tiba di kaunter,tiba-tiba berlaku adegan yang sangat mencemaskan.Dua orang Arab sedang berebut sebungkus Roti manis.Bertarik-tarik mereka untuk dapatkan roti tersebut.Yang hairannya,banyak lagi roti jenis itu dakat atas rak.Apa yang menjadi masalahnya?Nak leraikan,saya terlalu kerdil di sisi mereka.Juga kurang memahami apa yang mereka katakan.

Roti ini sekadar hiasan.Bukanlah roti ini yang ditarik-tarik.

Akhirnya persoalan saya terjawab.Mereka bukannya berebutkan roti itu untuk di makan,tetapi salah seorang dari mereka,iaitu Arab Palestin yang saya panggilnya doctor (sebab dia tengah buat PhD.)nak tolong bayarkan roti si Arab sorang ni.Tapi si Arab ni refuse.Maka terjadilah adegan tarik-menarik roti untuk membuat amal kebaikan.Maka di situ juga saya tersentak dan terharu..Mengenangkan memori lama...

Di MATRI dahulu....

Arwah 'Ammar banyak mengajar saya tentang mendahulukan saudaranya.'Ammar akan volunteer basuh talam seusai makan bersama dengannya.Tragedi ini berlaku ketika minggu ta'aruf form one lagi.Maka,sehingga form 5,kami sering makan setalam.

Adegan berebut untuk membasuh talam juga sering berlaku ketika di MATRI dahulu.Sekarang kurang,kerana jarang makan dalam talam.Adegan berebut-rebut membuat kebaikan kian hilang,juga adegan mengutamakan sahabat dalam sesuatu hal.

Jika di MATRI suatu ketika dahulu,sahabat-sahabat tidak lokek untuk berkongsi.Minta di ajar,akan diajarnya walaupun ketika itu dia sedang study subjek lain.Jika ada sedikit makanan e.g. biskut etc. akan di kongsi bersama.Manisnya semua itu.

Nilai-nilai kebaikan yang dituntut oleh Islam kian lama kian hilang.Walaupun kadang-kadang kita menganggap ia suatu yang kecil dan acapkali terlepas pandang,tetapi hakikatnya nilai-nilai itulah yang akan menyentuh hati-hati masyarakat.Itulah langkah pertama untuk da'wah fardhiah..

Insha Allah,sama-sama kita cuba berlumba-lumba dalam membuat kebaikan.Moga Amalan kita di terima Allah.

Adakah adegan itu akan berulang lagi???Tepuk dada,tanya iman...

Analogy..

Assalamualaikum..

Before my writing mood vanish into the thin air,let me share something which actually i got it during the KULTUM (kuliah tujuh minit/seven minutes tazkirah)which is our weekly assembly after Friday prayer at the IIUM main Masjid.

My respected sahabat,Safwan shared the tazkirah with few analogies.Personally,I feel more enthusiasm with analogy, as it can create link between myself and the things surround.Thus,I can easily remember the point.

1) The Empty Glass

Whenever you let a glass empty,naturally it will be filled with air isn't it?What is actually the air in the glass benefit us?I guessed nothing.If we fill the glass with water,the air in the glass will be pushed out and being replaced with water,right?And the water,absolutely benefits others.

It same goes to the human.Whenever we didn't fill our heart,time etc.with good things,surely it will be filled with unnecessary things whether you realize it or not.Let us reflect our daily activities.I'm sure this analogy fits the situation.


2) The Jar and the Glass

What will happened to the water in the jar if it is being filled into a glass?The water in the jar will be reduced in quantity right?Let say, originally it is 1 litre,now it should be less than that.

As a Dai'e,we shouldn't be like the jar.Giving tazkirah,advises etc.but at the same time our quality never increases.In fact,the people we advised becoming better compared to ourselves.

We need to be like a tree.As it keeps on growing,it will drop the seeds and let the new generation growth.In other words,we keep on increasing our iman,knowledge etc.and at the same time,we develop the people.

Wallahu'alam.Hopefully,you and me will gain something.


Note1:Congrat to some of my ex-classmates in MATRI whom will be getting married soon.Frankly speaking,I never expect "you" to be the first to enter the wedding's album.All the best for you.
~People keep on asking,when it will be my time for "that"
My answer:
*I have no idea
*Were there any girls who like me?I don't think so,guys.
*I've got other things/responsibilities to be settled first.
*I'm too young for that and I need time to process myself to be a
good muslim/daddy/husband.= not ready.

And many more answers.Hopefully they will understand.

Entah mengapa....

Just a short post..

Expressing my feelings to all my sahabat especially those who understand my situation and keep on supporting and advising me..

This path is difficult but the ending is certain.Thus,let us strive to gain Mardhatillah..
Working on the path of Allah need lot of patience,and humbleness.Avoid popularity,as it will spoil your 'Amal.

~Live in victory or die as a martyr.

-Dedicated especially to my beloved sahabat,Allahyarham Muhammad 'Ammar bin Zulkifli.He was the one who keep on supporting and advising me.Ana uhibbuka fillah akhi. Although you were not be side by side with me right now,but your spirit will stick firmly in my heart.

Hari-hariku telah berlalu...

Assalamualaikum.

Hampir 3 minggu ana membiarkan blog ini bersarang dan bersawang tidak ber'update'.Terlalu sibuk mungkin?

Mungkin coretan kali ini agak santai sebagai momentum awal untuk mula menulis semula,Insya Allah.

Alhamdulillah tanggal 15 Januari yang lalu,umur ana genap 22 tahun masihi.Sudah 22 tahun Allah beri kesempatan untuk hidup.Namun sejauh mana ana bersyukur,hanya ana dan Allah yang tahu.Terima kasih kepada kawan-kawan,sahabat-sahabat atas ucapan yang bertalu-talu.Penuh sekali inbox hp ana.Terpaksa ana delete.Juga kepada classmates,sisters n brothers yang terlibat membeli hadiah,makanan,kek secret recipe dll,ana ucapkan terima kasih.Alhamdulillah atas rezeki Allah.

Paling istimewa,ucapan dari ummi tercinta di awal-awal pagi sebelum ana bertolak ke office.Juga kakak dan abangku yang di sayangi.Syukran atas ucapan dan doa.

Hari Sabtu,16 Jan 10,Allah beri kesempatan untuk menjadi facilitator kem solat adik-adik sek.rendah Ibnu Kathir,Gombak.Seronok dapat beramah mesra dengan adik-adik tahun 4 hingga 6.Tak kering gusi berkongsi bersama mereka.

Hari Ahad,17 Jan 10,Allah beri kesempatan menghadiri Seminar Kesejahteraan Mahasiswa,SKEMA di masjid Putrajaya.Alhamdulillah,beremu dengan sahabat-sahabat sebatch ana yang ana rindui.Ali Hanis,Akmal,Adam Kadir,Umar Afifi,Abu 'Ubaidah,Zakiran dll.Sesungguhnya banyak benda yang ana dapat apabila menghadiri Program ini.

Gambar semasa SKEMA.Gambar sumbangan Muttaqee.Tq Taqi.hehe

Isnin-Jumaat:Ana kerja seperti biasa.Office mates asyik belanja makan ja.Jazakumullah.Makan di Carrefour Wangsa Maju dll.(Bila dah "kerja" ni gaya hidup macam mewah pulak.Makan di shopping complex.Padahal Ummi n Abah tak pernah ajar pun~Makan apa yang ada dan jangan memilih.Ingat dekat orang yang nasib kurang baik.

Sabtu,23 Jan:Kemas bilik.Petang bergerak ke rumah mak su di kepong bersama-sama dengan abang n sepupu.ada makan-makan sikit.alhamdulillah.Jumpa cousins yang agak ramai di sana.

Ahad,24 Jan:Junior ana di MATRI dulu,Abu Zarrin ajak makan luar.Dulu junior,sekarang dah macam adik-beradik pulak.Abu datang ambil ana di UIA.Then,kami lunch di Sri Gombak.Macam-macam perkara kami bualkan.Jazakallah Abu sbb belanja.

UIA tengah cuti mid sem break sekarang.10 hari.Ana tak cuti..Jadi,kesunyian juga d bilik ni.Alhamdulillah ada teman-teman foreigner untuk berbual.

Mungkin setakat ini dulu coretan kali ini.Maaf jika agak kurang bermanfaat atau tidak bermanfaat langsung.Doakan ana..

Wassalam.

Note1:Tengah sibuk cari topic utk dissertation final year ini.Moga Allah permudahkan.
Note2:Doakan agar Allah permudahkan untuk ana sambung Master,Insya Allah.